Setbacks and new beginnings

So I started divorce proceedings today. Not exactly how I had planned the day to go, but there you have it. I didn't really bargain on where the past 12 years have taken me, either. It's strange. I always thought people separated because they couldn't stand each other, not because they love too much and still couldn't make it work. So where do we go from here? How will it all pan out? Where will we live? How do we explain to our daughter what has happened in a way a 3-year-old mind can grasp? What about when she is old enough to understand?

Hopefully by then some of the anger, sadness, bitterness, and despair will have diminished enough to make it palatable. But these are not things I need to ponder right now. What needs to happen is I rediscover what this life has to offer.

Part of my recovery rediscovery is to create things, use my yen for all things artsy and make stuff without worry of it's worth or appeal to anyone but me. So here are a few...

Hmmmm...

So I just did this on a whim. While looking at the amazing work created by folks involved in One World One Heart it occurred to me that I could explore this medium and make it whatever I want. My life has taken a strange turn as of late and I am trying to heal myself. The first part of that healing is to start living MY life. While I can still be (and enjoy being) a mother to my beautiful daughter, a wife and friend to my husband, I need a place for me.

This experience is not new or unique to just me. It may even be a bit trite, but it is mine right now. I want to create, share, vent, explore, feel, write, love, enjoy and heal. We'll see where the path leads...